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September 20, 2004
Big News
I have big news!!! Last night (and all day today, until about 7:30pm) I downloaded SIMs from Seymen, and tomorrow, once I burn them onto CD I'll FINALLY have the SIMS!!! And a NEW LIFE will be born!!! :-) I'm so excited! Slightly dissapointed, because I didn't realize that I needed to burn these to CD before I could install them, and now that I don't live with Seymen, I don't have a lifetime supply of blank CDs, so now I have to go to the store and buy some so I can install it and play...Which I really shouldn't do because I've been on somewhat of a shopping spree in hopes of lifting my kind of low spirits lately...and now all my bills have come in, and my rent...But it's all good... Thank god for bi-weekly paychecks! I think I have it balanced out that I can get by...And this past weekend I did really good with the not shopping so much. Actually, I did REALLY good this weekend...Because I realized that my turkish classes every saturday, are directly across the street from a payless shoe store...and I've been DYINGGGGG to go, but held myself back because I knew that I had to buy a plane ticket home for Christmas. That was some major will power, and probably what led to my depression break-down Sunday night...but sundays are always the hardest to be alone you know? Espeically, when you add to it that I spent the morning reading a romance novel, and then watched some Lifetime TV and Lifetime Movie Network, and then went to see a love story moviel...All to realize that I'm all alone, hugging Patooty instead of Seymen.
But I'm trying...And I know that once Seymen finishes his project at work, I know he'll be happier and not so damn tired. The poor guy has been working his little butt off. Everyday of the week until 2 or 3 AM. But I'm very VERYYYYYYYYYY PROUD of HIMMMM!! I know that this is going to be a success for him and for Fuji.
Anyway, last night was definitly a rough night...But I laid in bed and went through a stack of pictures and pulled out every picture that had him in it. I just sat there, looking at the pictures, remembering what it was we were doing...(either vacationing in Tucson, AZ/Grand Canyon or at my "surprise" going away party at Schooners, because that's the stack that I haven't stashed in some unknown place)...and then I laid them on the other side of the bed next to me, tucked in the covers and I felt much better...I was able to finally fall asleep.
OK. Enough of that. I'm not writing anymore depressing feelings. It's monday and new week with LOTS coming up! So I can't be depressed anymore. I think that I'll only allow myself 1 day a week of self-pity and doubt...Which will logically be sunday, because that's when it usually sets in...
ANYWAY :-))) I talked to Carrie tonight. Ohh maan...It was so good to talk to her...Catch up on Rochester and LMNK news. Turns out my old project is going to start back up again (Wireless). She had a conference call with the SMEs, and they asked where I was, howcome I wasn't on the project? And she had to tell them that I had followed my dream and moved to Texas! (It's really funny because when I met them the first time, Carrie and I had gone to Dallas for my first trip ever to Texas, and I spent the whole week raving about Austin and Texas, and how much I loved it and wanted to move down here! The SMEs are from San Antonio, and kept teasing me, telling me they'd talk to my boss and somehow get Carrie and I transferred to Texas for the project so that I could live here! HEHEHE) Anyway...according to Carrie, Carter my old SME was really happy to hear that I moved down here :-) And then supposedly, they had a nice trip down memory lane about when Dave, the Cisco APM took us to Foo Goo de Chow, and reminded Carrie, how we ate and ate and ate, and how us girls couldn't stop eating :-) And by the way, if any of you ever go to Dallas, I would HIGHLYYYY...and I mean HIGGGGGGGGGGHHHLLLLYYY recommend that you go to Foo Goo de Chow's for dinner. It's the BEST BEST BEST brazillian steak house in the world. I've never had such good meat...EVER!!
Posted by beth at September 20, 2004 11:45 PM